So life is crazy. After the fiasco that was the first of the week, Ricky caught a flu bug thats been going around and was out all day Thursday. He probably could of used Friday off too but unfortunately the air force needed him. And when he got there they once again said he could be leaving, but to Florida this time, cause thats where they're flying out from now. But once again nothing has followed thru.
But life goes on, and we are just trying to survive. This week has been a little more emotional for me cause I had a moment. I was thinking about building something for my bike so that it would work for our bike rack that we have, and I was like my dad would be willing build it for me, but my dad passed away this last October. I felt awful for forgetting, and then I felt awful cause I miss him and all the wonderful emotions that go with loosing a loved one came back up. So thats this week has been hard for me. Plus it doesn't help when my emotions decide to go on a roller coaster.
Today started out bad. I had a bad dream that Ricky died and everyone was telling me to get over it and I didn't want to. It was awful and it felt really real. But when I woke up there he was next to me. I still felt horrible. And then there was a situation where me and Ricky felt left out today. I was a little upset, but I had some chocolate, watched a Disney movie, went on a bike ride, visited a good friend, and now I feel fine and don't really care about the earlier situation. I probably shouldn't have gotten upset, but I'm only human. Oh well.
So my completely randomness today was actually from yesterday. I needed to get some office supplies so I can organize and keep better track of all our bills, and while at the store Ricky saw a rubber band ball. He said please and I gave in. He was so happy.
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